Tonight was rough. My grandma, "Nana", passed away. Completely unexpected. She was older and also had alzheimer's really bad, so I am at peace knowing she is with the Lord right now with a new body - free from disease and in the presence of her Savior.
My mind stopped processing tonight - it felt blah, blank. (Literally it stopped working - this might be a first) I was feeling really alone and even though several people offered me a place to stay for the night (so I wouldn't be alone) - the only place I really wanted to be was with my family. I knew that wasn't possible but in my moment of being all alone and when the reality of it all started to sink in, the Lord came and wrapped His arms around me and I've never felt such peace and comfort as I did then. It still is hard and tears still well up when I allow myself to think upon memories. . . but that's only natural.
God is doing so much here and I know that I am supposed to remain in N. Ireland and continue on with the work of the Lord. Death always brings a new perspective on life for me. God is already starting to reveal things. It's amazing how He truly does turn all things into good. (And a lesson to be learned it seems as well)
Aside from my grandma's passing, I've had a really good couple of days. Yesterday after work i went over to my friend Lynsey's house for a girls bible study / fellowship night. Desperately needed and I am ever so glad I went! I ended up staying the night with her. I really enjoy our friendship. She is truly God's answer to many prayers I've prayed over last few weeks.
Today I went into work (though my day off) around 11.30am and helped Hannah with something. Then I got things ready for Junior Youth - WHICH WENT AMAZING! I love those kids! So glad I get to be a part of their lives :) I got the phone call about my grandma during High School Youth but I heard the service went well. (Be praying for a mini bus! It looks like we might be getting one - it would help us be able to bring more youth on a Thursday night!)
Working in the office tomorrow and then I have Street Reach at night and Adopt-a-Block the following morning. Busy couple of days.
Well I'm exhausted - I think all that crying really did me in.
I love you all!!
-J
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