As I sit here and think back on my day I can only smile. God is SO good and SO gracious! Where would I even be without Him? I can't even imagine. How lonely and unsatisfying life must be to those who don't know Him as their own personal saviour. . .
Today was Brittan's Mother's Day. "I woke up and instantly thought. . . ok remember to call mom. Wait no, I still have 2 months." Ha definitely threw me off! I went to bed probably the earliest so far since being out here. . . hoping to make it more of a regular thing. I'd rather have my early mornings than late nights. Church this morning was really good. Pastor Cecil spoke on the woman with the vessels of oil. How we need to trust God with the impossible and also be ready for it. Definitely a message that hit home with where I'm at right now. So perfectly timed :)
I read something last night in a daily devotional I get via email;
"You can count on me" -God
It's SO TRUE! And I never thought about it in that way before! Here I am worrying and knowing I need to trust God and why doubt for a second that He doesn't have a plan or won't pull through when HE ALWAYS DOES!
After lunch Sue took Allison, Sharon, Jackie, and I out for dinner. I had a delicious beef sirloin and prawns (shrimp). With a raspberry meringue type dessert. Afterwards we went to Victoria Park. It was beautiful outside! Sun, white clouds, ducks, daffodils, greener grass than the other side, cherry trees, and swans . . .
I don't think I've ever seen a swan not at a zoo or something. What a display of God's creative beauty. They looked full of strength, but with a feminine grace and elegance. It was then I was reminded of the ugly duckling story. It was then the Lord began to speak to me. . .
I have been going down memory lane alot this past week. . . Growing up with such a self hatred of myself. A sad and lonely girl - who never felt like she quite "fit in". Until the Lord fully took control of my life and showed me how fearfully and wonderfully He made me (Psalms 139:14). How he had designed me to stand out.
Looking at this swan today I was reminded of a quote I saw in a movie once; "Why are you trying so hard to fit in when you were born to stand out?". It was then I realized the change in me. . . that I was no longer the ugly duckling but a swan. . . white as snow, as my sins that have been washed, as purity. Full of strength, of the Lord's magnificence and power. And full of femininity and beauty and peace and grace. I don't have to be; because of Him I just am. . .
I am far from perfect, and many days I struggle to see the parallel but today's walk in the park proved to be another intervention for me. Something I am having more of, something I'm beginning to love.
Church tonight was also amazing. Rachel spoke on family and also the importance of keeping sex inside marriage alone - she definitely has a way with words and tonight was very anointed and flowed beautifully. She had Allison, Steven, and myself share testimonies about our families etc. . . I felt a bit all over the place but Alli and Steven pulled it all in together nicely.
I'm planning on heading to bed here shortly. A bit later than I wanted but still before midnight. I am determined to carry this new mission out!
Excited for what is to come! Armed and ready for any attacks. And looking forward to the miracles in store. . .
-J
ps Pray 4 Alan!!
No comments:
Post a Comment